Slept at 9 in the morning today , this few days we kept staying overnight or sleep late , cant tune back to sleeping early mood already , wonder what to do when school reopen . 2 more days and the school will be reopen , tomorrow will be countingdown with friends , how to alter my pants LOL . Why do human dream ?
Schools starting soon , got my hair cut already , its short :( , nevermind anyway , heading to nugis tomorrow to alter my new school pants , old one's are too tight already , they're bursting , infact it has already burst already :x , lets hope everything goes well next year:)
School is starting already , getting my hair cut tomorrow , GoodBye Long Hair LOL like long only :D , gotta tune back to study mood already , but right now i'm also not in holiday mood as well , i'm just pure moodless , wondering what will i be like when school starts ?? , sigh i dont know .
24/12/2008 Was at ZY house eating steamboat with all the others , did counting down at his house LOL ridiculous lah please LOL no one intrested only intrested in playing BlackJack hahah , then went down to Glen's house they played Majong while some of us played to computer (DOTA)sigh LOL , stsyed awake till 6 in the morning then went for breakfast with the others then took bus home and slept like nobody's business =) .
My Christmas plan did'nt happen cause something happen bofore christmas , lets just not talk about it already .
27/12/2008 Schools starting soon already , 4 more days , i used to look forward for school to reopen during November - Early December Period but not now , but no choice , schools going to start anyway so i'll just have to go with it .
ZOUK Seduction :D Went to zouk with my friends , first time going in , and its damn pack , like tuna pack in a can like that LOL , kinda shy , dont dare to dance , but after awhile theres goes the PARTY hahaha , all the way till 3.30am :)
My N level result is out English - B3 Combine Humanities - C4 Mathematic - A2 Science(Phy/Chem) - B3 Design And Technology - B3 Chinese - C4 Total point for all 6 subject is - 19point Total point for best 5 subject is - 15point Total point for best 3 subject is - 8point I qualify for Sec 5 :) Am i Happy about my results ? Not really , whats there to be happy about
Sign,Off Pat @ 11:44 PM
Thursday, December 18, 2008
First song i find meaningful , play it and you'll know
Getting my Nlevel results soon , people ask me for feelings about that day , what can i say ?? scared ? i really dont know man , dont have any feelings , whats the point of being scared ? Whats done is done , i tried my best before and during the exams , staying back almost everyday to do self studies alone , which is not what i used to do last year , i did this this year is because i really want to go to Sec5 and continue my Olevel , another reason is not really my aim anymore:( , i used to study hard for my second reason but now , tats no longer important anymore.....SIGH
Now i know what i've done is simply a waste of my effort , things i did and things i thought are just simply a waste of my time and effort , how silly can i be man , such an DUMBASS , i'm 17 and i'm so dumb , but i aint that dumb anymore , from now on , I'm really back to who i used to be in the pass , the happy-go-lucky Patrick :)
Went out with my friends in the afternoon to see some clothes but ended up not buying any cause the design is very limited . Then went to vivo city , A place i dont wish to go but they wanted to go so i followed them , when we're there , i kept myself behind all of them , silence and alone as that place really brought back lots of memories to me , memories i dont want to think of but no matter what it kept flashing through my brain , walking around the whole vivo brought back all the memories , happy memories which no longer belongs to me , which disappeared from me , sigh , maybe i'm just too tired , not in a very good mood anyway after the vivo walk , hopefully after a sleep i'll be better .
Night Out with Wanchuen , Quanhong , Zengye , went to Arab street to Shisha but ended up going to cine to watch Quarantine , a very bad show with bad ending LOL , I look forward to the next time to go out with you guys :D
Sign,Off Pat @ 8:46 PM
Monday, December 8, 2008
Thats it , I dont give a damn about anything now alright , i'm sad alone right now for what , i agree with you guys , why must i give a damn , sad alone , everything alone , thats it already , i sick and tired of this thing , you enjoyed yourself , went out , happy about everything , and i'm sad , at home , dont want to go out , whats the point , i'm the only sad one , thats it peeps , where you guys want to go , ASK ME ALONG , resume whatever i'm doing all along tomorrow , Gym , Slack , everything , TOMORROW WILL BE THE DAY , I SICK AND VERY FUCKED UP OF EVERYTHING THATS IN ME , PATRICK IS BACK , BUT THIS TIME I'M BETTER , WILDER THEN THE PREVIOUS ME
DONT TALK BEHIND MY BACK IF YOU DONT KNOW WHAT REALLY HAPPEN , WATCH YOUR MOUTH ALRIGHT , I KNOW WHO YOU ARE , JUST SHUT UP AND DONT SAY ANYTHING , THAT WILL DO
Sign,Off Pat @ 12:03 AM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
I'm alright now ? Maybe ? I dont know , theres definitely some moods flying around here and there , i can do anything also , i'll just have to try my best to recover from everything , its not i dont want , but you should know that saying is easier then to be done , i'm trying to be brave from now on , i really tried my best
Sign,Off Pat @ 3:26 PM
Friday, December 5, 2008
i truly understand what a relationship need , it needs more then just one party to put in the effort , just one person is'nt enough , thank you for giving me this lesson , i really mean it even though i still dont understand why , i writing this out to all , i dont care what you're going to say , i did my best in everything , gave my best , sacrifice lots of things but now it has come to a sudden end with no outcome , what to to , nothing i can do . Even thought i'm still down , just give me time alright . THANK YOU ZENGYE AND QUANHONG FOR LENDING ME A LISTNING EAR WHEN I NEEDED SOMEONE TO TALK TO , I REALLY APPRECIATE FRIENDS LIKE YOU GUYS :D THANKS
Sign,Off Pat @ 9:40 PM
Being awaken from my sleep for dinner , never ate anyhing the whole day , went out and grandma started nagging , saying that i change alot recently , all this , not in any freaking good mood this days , i'm damn stress , so many things made me so stressed up , it'll end only if i did that something that particular something to end all this forever Stress , Damn Stress
Dont want to be at home now , i'm feeling very stress right now , i feel very uneasy right now , i'm feeling so stuffed , i got so many things to say , i'm really damn stress , i've never felt like this before in my life , i'm doing something i never did for a very long period of time , not in the mood to do anything other then that , i rejected everything that comes to me , food , going out and etc . very messed up right now , i'm damn stress .
What wrong have i done wrong to deserve this , did lots of thinking last night and i still dont understand why , why is it like this , it a very big change within just a few days , only 2 of you understand what i mean . Planned for movies , planned for dinners , planned for christmas and so many things and now this just happen . I did my best in everything i can do , gave everything i can give but what have i done wrong to deserve this ? change everything thats in me to be better , attitude , personality and behaviour but seems like all this is like just a waste , i change for nothing . people says that as long as you did your best , your effort will not be wasted , but i dont agree with that phrase , as it did'nt happen to me , did everything but it just did'nt happen . theres just alot more to say but its just no point posting everything here as i believe it just wont do any help in me i'll just remain as who i am now and how i am feeling . never had i felt like this before in my life , i dont have the courage to handle this , go ahead , call me coward , timid or selfish , i dont care . I wish i had never work up from the sweetest dreams that i never had before in my life but now i'm awake the dream is gone forever . Its best for you , but as for me , i'm just being left out alone with no one , to suffer and eventually wait for something to happen somehow . Now its gone , everything is gone , left with nothing , i wonder how long can i survive this stress in me , its worst then the previous time cause this time i really put in my everything and i mean everything i have but the outcome is really a nightmare i never wanted , never in my life . you'll never know how it feels like , my blog only tells part of it , i'm having the full , STRESSED UP
My name is Patrick , just call me Pat , i'm turning 18 this year , i'm standing at 1.77m tall , Single , Well basically i'm a easy going person , friendly , easy to get along but depends on you , Character wise , i'm someone who keep all my promises , because i want people around me to keep their promises to me too , i'm someone who only wants to remember the good times and hope to forget all the bad times and i love seeing smiles :). So i think thats some of it , there might be more but i'm not saying , know me and you'll know more about me :) action speaks louder then words so come and know me if you want to know more :)
Intrested to know more friends , I love to go out , chill , slack or club ?(cause i'm legal already) LOL , i find staying at home boring unless i have something to do :X
